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For some reason i feel empty.. Lately i have been completely out of just everything that I'm usually on for..
I have given up on the fact of stressing and going nuts over the stupidest things on earth..I have decided that now I'm going to take a seat and watch the show go on..Sounds stupid but the one that usually doesn't care as much enjoys the best things of the relationship. Now i want to be that person.
sigh...
Uh mm the year started good,i guess..If in that category you can fit that fact that i feel like if your parents just fcuked MY whole night by making both of us miserable..uh yeah i thought that probably didn't make my whole night the best..
You know what on second thought every time that is time for my time with you and my family(when is a big event) ALWAYS something else with your family comes up..Lets see! For Christmas they wanted you to go and say grace on dinner with them. When we already had the agreement that in 2007 we were to spend it with my family..The cute part is that you were willing to do it(sigh I was not surprised at all)..Before i use to expect much more from you, sadly now i don't, i guess now i take whatever comes and if i don't like it then i don't take it.
I get the comments that I am too jealous. Maybe i am, and i understand!(grr i do)..But you know what the biggest problem is: I CAN'T TRUST YOU! sigh..i don't understand why, but i don't.. Ever since the little issue with "mike"(he he that was very creative from your part) i started to realize that it was going to be a tough walk, i still went ahead cause i love you..Ironically its just getting harder and your not helping at all..Sadly i don't see whats so hard about respecting that i am in your presence, but hey I'm no one to say anything at this point.
At the end of this month i start school again..Now that I'm closer to graduating I'm feeling skeptical about..I'm going to keep on and see what happens with that because after I'm so close i don't want to give up..like I'm giving up on most things i ever wanted..
posted by wen♫ at
1/14/2008
2 Comments:
para ser sincero no creo k esta relacion debe d continuar, solo hablas de ti. t has puesto en mi lugar? NO! ya estoy desencantado d esto y x lo k veo y estas demostrando t estas convirtiendo en esa persona k fuiste cuando la vez pasada x la cual terminamos. eso no lo kiero volver a vivir. dices k me amas pero eso no es lo k demuestras, ya no kiero seguir en esta relacion donde estamos como simplemente como 2 personas durmiendo en un misma cama sobre un mismo techo, si eso fuera lo k yo kiero mejor me hubiese kedado en la casa de mis padres. lo siento pero no creo k haya futuro en una relacion donde no haya confianza ni mucho menos cuando una persona es seca e indiferente. siempre e tratado de ser cariñoso, dulce, entre otras cosas pero k recibo a cambio? tu ya lo sabes... no sabes el desencanto k tengo x dentro y cada vez eso k siento crece mas debido a tu actitud. t lo e dicho muchas veces, te acepto con tus defectos pero tu simplemente no puedes hacer lo mismo. sufri mucho x ti una vez y me dije a mi mismo k no lo volveria a hacer, para eso mejor termino contigo de una vez x todas.
oh y en ese comentario k hiciste en el otro post, la verdad si kieres volver a como eras antes adelante solo dime y recojo mis cosas y me voy de tu vida para siempre aunk eso es lo k estas logrando ya
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