For some reason i feel empty.. Lately i have been completely out of just everything that I'm usually on for..
I have given up on the fact of stressing and going nuts over the stupidest things on earth..I have decided that now I'm going to take a seat and watch the show go on..Sounds stupid but the one that usually doesn't care as much enjoys the best things of the relationship. Now i want to be that person.
sigh...
Uh mm the year started good,i guess..If in that category you can fit that fact that i feel like if your parents just fcuked MY whole night by making both of us miserable..uh yeah i thought that probably didn't make my whole night the best..
You know what on second thought every time that is time for my time with you and my family(when is a big event) ALWAYS something else with your family comes up..Lets see! For Christmas they wanted you to go and say grace on dinner with them. When we already had the agreement that in 2007 we were to spend it with my family..The cute part is that you were willing to do it(sigh I was not surprised at all)..Before i use to expect much more from you, sadly now i don't, i guess now i take whatever comes and if i don't like it then i don't take it.
I get the comments that I am too jealous. Maybe i am, and i understand!(grr i do)..But you know what the biggest problem is: I CAN'T TRUST YOU! sigh..i don't understand why, but i don't.. Ever since the little issue with "mike"(he he that was very creative from your part) i started to realize that it was going to be a tough walk, i still went ahead cause i love you..Ironically its just getting harder and your not helping at all..Sadly i don't see whats so hard about respecting that i am in your presence, but hey I'm no one to say anything at this point.
At the end of this month i start school again..Now that I'm closer to graduating I'm feeling skeptical about..I'm going to keep on and see what happens with that because after I'm so close i don't want to give up..like I'm giving up on most things i ever wanted..
